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Name: hannah
Country: United States
State: Ohio
Birthday: 11/19/1984
Gender: Female
Interests: JesusChrist. theBible. theoutdoors. hiking. youthministry. hangin with friends. singing. laughing. thecountry. cheese. my family. shaya. organizing. kids. thelearningchannel. mytractor. music. traveling. shopping. reading. people. countrymusic. coffee.
Occupation: Student
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AIM:  hnnhmay
Member Since:
5/24/2004
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| graduation is now behind me and that much anticipated "life" is ahead of me. however, "life" isn't sounding so appealing right now and harder to accept than i had expected. it has officially hit me. no, i don't have a real job lined up...no, i'm not getting married anytime soon...no, i don't want to be secretly scoped out from a distance to see if i have a ring on my finger...no, i don't want to think about health insurance...no, i don't want to begin paying off student loans...and NO, i don't want to leave my friends. i have found that the reality of life is not so appealing at this point. but yes, i have found that God is in control and He has been faithful so He will be faithful. if you would have been with me today, you would probably describe me as a "pathetic emotional mess"...one of these instances being the conversation i had with dad about paying off student loans and finding health insurance before december 31. but one old woman came up to me in church today and after asking the dreaded questions about my future said, "Hun, this is exciting...just don't get in a hurry...sometimes we just try to act too quickly without asking God." so true, but so hard to live out when it seems like everyone else has their lives planned out. or at least has a single plan at all. | | |
| remember those research projects that we all were required to complete in 5th grade? ...where you survey the country of your choice, make a map using paper mache materials, and dress up like the natives while providing food from that country? yes, i remember. but i do not remember ever discovering the reality of my group's country: the Philippines--i learned about their fruit exports, learned how to draw the flag, and probably found out the common jobs that are held....but this article makes me sick: http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/asia-pacific/6507495.stm <--GO THERE. these girls could have been you-you won't hear about these things unless you seek them out! no, life is not easy everywhere-we have fooled ourselves to thinking that everyone is just like us-("grab" a mcdonalds snackwrap on the way to work and put your $12 lipstick on in the car)....not only that, but that the "us" that seems so blessed may be shooting ourselves in the foot with our luxeries and with the understanding that they are standard. | | |
| say you just burnt your hand on the "sandwich smasher" in the cafeteria (completely hypothetical)....to say the least, this event would probably change your casual behavior around the smasher to a very cautious behavior...change, in this case, is inevitable. should not other, more serious events in life also automatically change our behavior? i would probably say so. but here is the issue: what if you are at a loss of how to change? what if you have become so desensitized to change that you didn't know where to turn? "my life will never be the same" is the phrase i hear all to often without seeing actions behind it. maybe, just maybe, God is still working in the heart of that person for change down the road...but are we open to God's heart? are we open to the million possibilities for change that God may have for us? my broken heart is slowly unfolding and even if its a change that will always be a part of my life, i want God to teach me. but i know this: no change is not an option. | | |
| just watched a documentary on slavery in the world. yes, i just sat here in my dorm room, enjoying a a few sweettarts, WATCHING a video on slavery. i can't believe how ignorant we are as middle class suburban people--no WAIT, i can believe it...that thing that we like to strive for so hard but try to hide our desire for: comfort. "cater to my needs" screams from so many americans. i was brought to tears hearing the voice of a teenage boy explain that he had worked as a slave for 5-6 years harvesting cocoa beans, but had NEVER tasted chocolate. i was not surprised when he said that he would not have "nice words" toward the people who eat chocolate because these chocolate consumers "are eating my flesh." he suffers for our comfort. do we EVEN care? | | |
| how sweet it is to be a child of God. how amazing it is to look back on my life as a cedarville student--now that my time is wrapping up, i am beginning to realize the blessing of God's chastening, yet faithful character. the girl that i was when i stepped on cedarville as a freshman was naive, flighty, spiritually insensitive and confident. the problem here being the confidence...as time progressed, God has broken me many times--many of these times, no one knew i was hurting, no one knew i was breaking--but God has CHANGED me. do i still struggle? obviously. what Christ-follower doesn't? but one thing i do know and am now confident in: Christ has the victory in my life. He is sufficient to change anyone, and the girl that will be stepping off cedarville's campus in two and a half months will be worlds different than the one that began just four short years ago. to whom do i give credit? Christ ultimately. a loving, Christ-centered family, and a certain group of friends who love Christ that have challenged me to think beyond my limits, taught me loads of new ideas, and who have shown me by their lives what it means to follow Christ. and for this i am forever thankful. | | |
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